I'm struggling today. 

Nate has been gone for the past week and a half, and the solo parenting is starting to really wear me down. 

I've made friends here, but it's very easy to still feel very much like an outsider.  I miss the ease that I have with my friends back home and the laid back nature of our friendships.  I miss sitting on my couch in my sweats and chatting about everything and anything with girlfriends and not feeling like I have to "be on" all the time. 

I miss my best friend.  She received some terrible news yesterday and it's breaking my heart that I can't be there for her, that I can't drive the 7 minutes to her house and help her family or drive 5 hours to sit next to her as she tries to make sense of it all.

I miss home right now, and it kind of sucks that I am so far away from everyone I care so much about.  I love the dream we are living right now, but today is definitely one of the hardest I've had since being here.